I’ve been slacking lately. My knit enjoyment has been down. I’ve finally settled on the shawl project to make my aunt. She is so special to me and I hate that her partner my uncle is gone. Grief is such a nasty beast. I only feel a fraction that my aunt must feel. It so unfair. I called my aunt on her birthday to wish her well. I could sense in her tone a faraway wish that he would be there with her.
I will say it’s a pattern from one of my favorite designers. It has a chart that I am diligently following. My increases are sort of yucky so I’m unknitting from time to time. Friends what’s on your needles?
I thought I would feel differently by now, but grief is a damn bitch. I am extremely grateful for my LYS. Accepting my strangeness and allowing me just to soak up the knit atmosphere. Laughs were hard to come by in the early days, but in my recent trip I started opening up. Opening up to me means laughing and BSing with my regular friends. Occasionally my thoughts drift to my uncle, but he wouldn’t want me to stay I unhappy for long. In addition to my curious dog Eddie. He can snatch a skein in under 3 seconds. He keeps my company when I knit so I guess I can overlook the occasional skein thief.
K N I T T I N G update
I started working on 2 new projects that are giving me joy. A hat called Check This Out! Hat and a pair of socks for a friend (not pictured).
I’m in a dilemma with knitting a gift for my aunt. She chose the pattern and I already can’t stand it. Part of me is fighting it with its 210+ cast-on. I should have known it wasn’t going to be easy. I love that at least the yarn is yummy Malabrigo Rios, but I have to ripe it out because it was a Mobius cast-on by accident. Both are textured, but one grow outwardly (Alicia Plummer’s MidAutumn) and the other is built in the round (photo by Tricotbec- Brookstone). I don’t have time to play around as her birthday is the first week of February.
In another topic: Work update
I am please to announce I’ll be starting a new job at a local university. It only took me five years to aquire a job in the same state I reside. It will be a positive shift where I can really take care of my home and make it more welcoming. I slowing telling a couple of people I work with case I don’t want a big fuss. The funny thing is that my old director is organizing a Luncheon for my departure from the city. I love the people at my old job, but loss motivation. It took me a good year to start looking. As a fellow knitter should remind myself that if the pattern isn’t meshing then it time to get a new project. What’s on your needles, friends?
I do not feel like my normal chippery self, but life must go on. I lived most of 2016 with intention. I define intention as action behind words. An example of intention in 2016 is that I went to a library conference and managed to present in two different segments. My confidence in research and having a professional presence both were achieved. I even managed to utilized Twitter at the conference and while watching Super Soul Sunday. That was the biggest surprise when I saw that I was re-twitted.
In 2016, I honored my intention my making a cabled hat. It was scary, but I made it through. It had a good home for a knit friend.
In 2017, I have more knit plans:
Finish 4 WIPs. One sock, two shawls, one hat,
Schedule 2 knit sessions for cabling
Start first sweater by Nora Gaughan called Mohr
Make 3 socks for me
In non-knitting goals:
Complete book chapter by providing research and analysis
Complete research for local symposium conference
Attend a library conference in August
Attend a professional football and college basketball game
Have fun even if things don’t turn out the way I want it to.
Read 10 books, most are non fiction (the list is at work)
Lastly allow myself to grieve through writing and talking with friends. Listen to music more and allow for silence whenever things become too much. My uncle was like Mr. Miyagi from Karate Kid. He always asked a question when I’d ask him something as a little kid. I can almost hear his voice saying “Do not give up Grasshopper, I’m with you always”.
Special thanks goes out to my LYS friends whose presence was an antidote for my grief. I remember studying Elizabeth Kúber Ross in undergrad. I wasn’t interested in what she thought then, but now it makes some sort of sense. The stages of grief. I’m still angry and resentful. I truly to be myself, but the loss of my uncle who was my shining light isn’t physically here with me. Advice for grief that isn’t helpful… “It gets better with time”. This makes me angry. For the bereaved time is like poison. I’m still not myself, but made it a point to be around others for the sake of having normalcy.
I haven’t done too much. I want to finish this test knit that is beyond due. A dear knit friend showed me a fabulous hat batter with chunky yarn. It’s mean green for a dear friend. I working on another Kate Davies hat and bought some fabulous colors from Tempting Ewe Yarns.
My favorite time of year is Fall. Growing up in Georgia, I loved to see the leaves change colors and the smell of a bond fire. Sipping hot cocoa and roasting marshmallows is my kind of excitement as a kid. I honestly feel sorry for kids these days who have no concept of playing outdoors. You couldn’t keep me in the house during the fall. I was at football games or working a part time job. The Internet and tech gadgets are the death of youth (why do i feel old as I reminisce)?
My wife’s birthday is coming soon. I’ve got several hat ideas aan im hoping she’ll like at least one of my hair brain ideas. I’m wait to finish the hat before revealing. the only hint I can make is that it will be lined. I’m using yummy Malabrigo Rios.
I will share my new surprise, Mohr sweater swatch and color reveal. A local knit friend has agreed to hold my hand as I embark on this scary journey. I was joking to my knit nite crew that I my arms are the length of a child’s slim capris. I’m sure I can’t make the sleeves quarter length. I’ll have plenty of comical stores about my sweater adventure.
2016 Knitting Goals Review:
Learn how to make Cables. I’ve one one project with cables. I plan on getting Nora Gaughan’s new cable book for learning the new techniques.
Make a garment. I have plans to hopefully start Mohr soon. Bought most of my supplies.
Works in Progress
Last year I made a Baa-ble Hat designed by Donna Smith. my mom stole it. So I’m making a replacement hat. It’s coming out really well. I’m using some berroco vintage I swapped at my LYS market day. This is such an enjoyable knit. Friends so you have annual knit projects?
Last week was good as I celebrated turning another year older. This is probably the first time in a long time that I didn’t fret. I’m not sure if this will be a common theme, but I shall remain hopeful. In my old age, I’ve discovered that I tend to like rules. Or rather ‘suggestions’. In knitting especially it’s good to have a well developed pattern to follow and preferrably one that has a chart. The picture above is my 3rd attempt at making Melanie Berg’s Ingwer. I was swept away by the imagery, but for the life of me cannot keep my wits about me to get into a rhythm with this pattern. I’m certain it’s all my fault as I commute at least 2 hours daily and my wandering mind is to blame. My knitting ‘mishaps’ which I am susceptible of doing. My rule of 3 means there are 3 attempts to a project before I cry “UNCLE.”
Here is exhibition of my other WIPs. June might be a continuation of finishing. I struck out with Tour de Sock.
WIP 1: Tour de Sock: Week 1
Start date: 6/2/2016
WIP 2: Lilli Pilli Wrap
Start date: February 2016
Comments: I have to pull back 3 rows of lace.
WIP 3: Wandering Sock
Start date: March 2016
Comment: wonder way to start toe-up, but I lack motivation.
So friends, What’s got your pants in a twist? How many times do you give a retry? Sometimes I find myself dreaming about needing projects to avoid the lousy project that stumps me. What’s on your needles?