2015 was a big year to learn and live out this quote about failure:
I believe that throughout life we are here to work through unfinished business. The life lesson that I’ve been tackling this year has been failure. As a young athlete I was often told that failure is the act of not trying. As a young adult I never really understood the lesson behind failure. My actions of starting over might look from Johnny down the street. It was only until April 2015 that I realized the essence of what failure mean. If lamenting were a talent, I’d be CEO. Depression and anxiety were my constant companions. How did I climb out of the lethargic spiral? A weekly visit to my LYS, light exercise several times a week, and allowing myself a space to be vulnerable.
Once I allowed myself to sit with the feelings of failure without internalizing it….I started seeing my true self. The hopes and picturesque dreams of my life began to change. I shed my clock of anxiety and stood face to face with authenticity. The brave words of Dr. Brene Brown finally made sense to me.
My goals of 2015 was filled with measurable actions. Reading, knitting socks, continuing genealogy research, and attend a library conference were on my list. If I held the same perspective I had in 2014- I probably would have said that 2015 was a miserable time. I can honestly say I have grown this year and can acknowledge some progress.
Life nugget (noun): a result of working through a life event. It is not a feeling, but more of an experience. It is not measurable event, but gratitude and acceptance is gained from the experience (self-defined by blogger)
My 2015 Progress:
I have re-connected with old friends, started building a professional network, revise my career options, learned to knit socks, and found a new job. These accomplishments feel like milestones. I am grateful for the lesson of failure and the compassion that I have experience from the most unlikely people. Knitting friends, how was 2015? Any lessons or experiences that changed the way you view your life? No experience is too insignificant. The mere fact I made this into a confessional blog post speaks to the impact of my 2015 goals.
Books, great food, and knitting are the main things in life that keep me occupied. If I could get paid to do these things full-time…I would be one dangerous woman. I’m sharing my reads below. My goals for 2015 was to read 52 books. Although I didn’t meet the goal (45/52), I completed a large percentage (88%). I will say that I had more mystery, suspense, and romance read this year. I used Goodreads to follow authors, read reviews, and found new authors.
I have been very quiet this last month. I wish I could say that I was super busy with deadlines of knitted gifts, but it would be untrue. This last four months have been challenging. I have spent the last four years at the same company and position. I am happy to reveal that I will be starting 2016 at a new job.
I decided to make my grandma some slippers while she recovers from knee surgery. We all know how much I love colorwork. This is such an amazing pattern. Thanks to a fellow knitter I found these via Instagram. Wanderers: Modern Mukluks. I am working on the second pair and will put in ‘afterthought heels’. The yarn is from an amazing Indie Dyer, Janel from Wandering Wool
In September, I broke my yarn diet and spoiled myself with Madelinetosh holiday club yarn. It was too irresistible to deny. A choice of yarn color with two different bases (BFL sock & quarter round), a project bag, stitch markers, and several unicorn tails for future heel/toe knitted socks. My choices were Pendleton Red & Winter White. I’m starting to like reds and greys. Madelinetosh makes the best greys.
I also working on some new socks Not Just Boring Dude Socks for darling wife. I’ve just started the cuff, but they are going to be awesome (more pics soon). I also started on the Onward Shawl from my favorite designer Shannon Cook. I made a hat last year that made a wonder gift. I love her designs because they are written very concise and simple. One of the new frustrations that I have with patterns is that there are 5 different ways to write the same instructions. I dread patterns that have more than 3 pages.
Friends were you able to meet your knitting deadlines? What’s on your needles? Are you planning new knit goals in 2016? I’m working on my 2016 knit this weekend. Let’s hope all is well. Enjoy family and friends this holiday season, plus the unseasonably warm weather.
This blog post will have been published a couple of weeks after Thanksgiving. I can thank my new book discovery from my IG friend ‘Katie’. I try to share good knitting news with folks with the most amount of personal anonymity because it more about the process and less about the details of who says what. Plus who can get over something so fantastic as stylishly knit socks.
I’ve never really considered myself a fashionista. I dress or create designs that make me feel comfortable. The older I become, I realize that my preferred styles have changed or I own more blues/oranges and even pick up the occasional fushia. I despise pink so I forewarn all my knitting friends to punch me if I show up with pink yarn.
Knitting friends, what are you asking Santa or knitting faeries to bring you? Is there a skein of yarn you are itching to buy or a pattern that has worn a hole in your pocket?